英语翻译我决定去兼职是不想用父母的钱,也是我不想太过想念你,所以我想自己变得忙碌,累到躺下就能睡着,不再想你.刚开始的两

英语翻译
我决定去兼职是不想用父母的钱,也是我不想太过想念你,所以我想自己变得忙碌,累到躺下就能睡着,不再想你.刚开始的两天,一直都在想骗自己,其实你对我不那么重要,我很快就能忘记你.但是,我想我错了,如果你不联系我,我不能睡觉直到天亮,我想你太多.我告诉自己不要哭,但我还是哭了.我知道这很疯狂.你应该从来没有这样过,我也是.我很想你可以告诉我晚安和早安,你会觉得很麻烦吧.我想你会主动找我,会关心我,会说很多温暖的话,但你从来没有.很多时候我觉得自己是自作多情.你可以给我天堂,你也可以给我地狱.9月和10月是我最快乐的时间,因为你每天都陪我.我觉得这60天过得很快,每一天我都很开心.这是为什么我会心疼删掉这段记录.我可以丢失所有记录除了你的.这是我用第一份工资买的东西.东西不是很贵重.谢谢你给过我一段很美好的时光.

i've decided to have part time is that i do not want to take money from parents anymore,not that i want to miss you too much thus i let myself get busy and sleep after whole day tired and stop missing you.first two days,trying to fool myself that actually you are not that important,i should be able to get rid of you soon.but,i think i was wrong,if you never contacted me,i never sleep,i miss you too badly.i try to hold my tears but i am still failing myself in this.i know this sound crazy,i assume you never had this ,netheir was me.i hope that you can greet me in the morning and night but that will be a trouble for you.i thought u will searching for me,care for me,saying a lot of words that could warm my heart,but you never did.most of time,i think i had it on my own,all those feeling.you gave me both,heaven and hell.september and october is the most happy moment i had in my life for there is your accompany every single day.time flies and i spent my day happily each and every day with you.that's why i am deleting all those record unwillingly,i can wipe out all those record but not you.this is the thing i bought with my first get salary,although it might not that expensive,but i appreciate that you play a part in my most beautiful moment in life of mine.