英语翻译Do not know from the start when he began is no longer th

英语翻译
Do not know from the start when he began is no longer think of themselves before!Gradually find themselves in the decadent,in the depression slowly!I would like to let themselves take heart,but I found that it is futile!
I still excluded from the hearts of all the things I could change!I do not know why!In fact,I really wanted to let themselves become the original that obedient good boy,but from a young age to develop the habit of instinct refused to let me!
I really said that despite the depression in the decadent,but I remember that every person on my good!Although the mouth that I do not care about,but I care about every person and every one I care about people!This is only an excuse I,I just want me to leave without the attachment,just want to quietly left!I do not want to let himself could not bear,do not want to take their time,there are many bear
IDear friends,in fact,I love you,I really care about you,but I do not want to say!I do not want me to leave some people stay!I love you,my dear friends,I want to say I want you outside,but I can not go back,because I already gave no way out!
I just want to go this way,because I do not want to cry!I do not want to be someone to worry!I am sorry,I do this,you just want to have fun,because I do not want to give you a matter not happy!To remember that I told you that I as long as you happy,happy!

不知道从一开始的时候,他开始不再认为自己是前!渐渐发现自己在腐朽,在抑郁症慢慢!我想,让自己振作起来,但我发现它是徒劳的!
我仍然被排除在心中的所有事情我可以改变!我不知道为什么!事实上,我真的很想让自己成为原认为,听话的乖孩子,但是从青年时代发展的习惯,本能地拒绝让我来!
我真的说,尽管抑郁症的腐朽,但我记得每个人对我的好!虽然口,我不关心,但我关心的每一个人和每一个我所关心的人!这只不过是一个借口,我,我只是想我离开,没有扣押,只想悄悄地离开!我不想让自己无法忍受,不想把自己的时间,有许多承担!
idear的朋友,事实上,我爱你,我真的关心你,但我不想说!我不希望我离开,有些人留!我爱你,我亲爱的朋友们,我想说,我希望你以外的,但我不能回去,因为我已作了,没有出路了!
我只想去,这样,因为我不想哭泣!我不想有人担心!对不起,我这样做,您只是想要得到乐趣,因为我不想给你一个不快乐的事!要记住,我告诉你,我只要你幸福,快乐!!!