英语翻译I just feel like escaping lately.I don't why I am so ups

英语翻译
I just feel like escaping lately.I don't why I am so upset these days.What am I thinking of?I know things are not coming back but I am so lost because I am so away from what I used to be.I know I cannot be with him and also anyone because we are just so apart,that is nobody's fault and I don't blame pn anyone.Gossip girl has told me one thing,sometimes you should put the past things in the pass.Is this the time that I should pick my time?I am really confused.All I want is someone I care also cares about me,someone holds my hand and never let go,someone I can do whatever I want to do.BUT,is seems so hard because someone is nowhere showing up.AND,how do I know that someone around me is the right one?I still remembered how I did this before.BAM,nobody viving in my mind can still be there now because they can't be here anymore.I've lost count of how many times I have mentioned that to myself now here's once again.Because the one who has been someone for me is not anyone,I may not even see him again for my life,and things won't go back like the way they did before.OK,enough talking about the past,I just need to find the person I am.But where?Is she somewhere in the past?Or is she somewhere in the future?Anyone thinks he knows the answer please let me know,because I am living her life now and I am lost in some corner she's never told me.I wonder should I escape in,or escape out.

感觉自己最近一直在逃避.我不知道为什么自己会这样,我十分不安,这些天.我在想什么的?我知道事情没有回来,但我这样,因为我失去了在离我从前.我知道我不能与他,也有人因为我们只是如此外,这是任何人的过错,我不责怪任何人通知书.闲话女孩告诉我一件事,有时候你应该放在通过过去的事.这时候,我应该选择我的时间?我真的很困惑.我想要的是我关心的人也很关心我,有人认为我的手,不让走,人我可以做任何我想做的事情.但是,似乎很是困难,因为有人无处显示出来.和,我怎么知道我身边有人是正确的?我仍然记得我是如何这样做过.军火,没有人在我的脑海viving仍然可以存在,因为他们不能在这里了.我已经失去了多少次我刚才计数,现在在这里对自己的一次.因为一个谁,是我的人不是人,我可能不会再见到他,我的生活,事情会不会喜欢他们像以前回来.行,足以谈论过去,我只需要找到我的人.但是在哪里呢?她是在过去的某个地方?抑或是她在将来某个地方?有人认为他知道答案,请让我知道,因为我现在的生活,她的生活,我失去了在某些角落里,她从来没有告诉我.我不知道我应该逃跑,或逃脱了.